Day 15 (Bonus day!): Jan 4, 2007

The Beginning (Day 15 from Stacey)

Well, we have reached the end of one road and found ourselves at the all important beginning of another. As we headed to board the plane that would take us back to Abeche we received the sad new of another attack on a camp in Guerreda. Two refugees were killed. We had tried so hard to get to that camp on the day where the bloodshed happened. I felt a strange mix of gratitude that we were not there and deep sorrow for the same reason, perhaps we could have been of help in some way. I keep seeing the faces of all those we’ve met and wondering how terrified those near the attack must have felt with the fighting so close again. The details are as yet unclear but in truth, they really do not matter. The only thing that seems to matter is that two people who survived a genocide died an unnecessary death yesterday. The military presence at the Abeche airport was enormous and I had such a sense of the life one must lead here at this time.

We saw Yusef again in Abeche, I was so happy to see him.It is somehow extremely comforting to know how quickly we can become attached to those we hardly knew a few weeks ago. Ali spoke of his fears about going back to the camps with the recent attacks and all of the uncertainty. I remembered that this man, who is so good with the refugee children, is hardly grown himself at 24. He talked about his commitment to making his country more secure and prosperous. I was inspired by his views on committing to a goal in life for the betterment of your country not just the ” ambiance of life” as he called it. I felt overwhelmed by the sadness of leaving him here awaiting the next attack, unsure of where they will strike and only wanting to study and provide for his family. These team members were an enormous part of our work for which I am forever grateful and I will miss them dearly.

Every person we have met and talked to has been a blessing that came about in a completely unplanned way. Every day was a miracle to me, as we continued to be safely and divinely led to the very people who needed to connect and tell their story that day. We’d walk into a camp and just let the day take us where it needed most to go. That is part of the luxury and freedom that comes with ” citizen reporting”, no middle people. We experienced those on their first week in a camp and those on their fourth year. Those who lived in the very first village attacked and those born in these camps who knew no other life. We’ve carried messages from Texas, Germany and Philadelphia, to mention a few, to UNHCR tents in the middle of Chad. We’ve carried messages from those who have traveled countless desert miles and survived years of untold suffering right back to Redding, CA, Mexico and Scotland. We’ve had the rare privilege to be a small part of connecting regular people, who care more about each other than politics, to other regular people. We’ve travelled this road, accompanied, on both sides of the world, by the very people I aspire to surround myself with and emulate. Those of you who posted comments and did not receive a response please know that we somehow did not receive it yet but felt your presence regardless. My gratitude and hope in this particular moment are immeasurable.

In truth, there were moments that I wished we were coming here at a safer time. There were moments when I felt incapacitated by my fear….of flying, of dying, of war.Many moments before we left were a struggle to confront my cowardice and utilize the faith of those who held fast when my own wavered. Somehow, a war torn country so far away felt imminently more frightening then the work I’d done on the war torn streets of Philadelphia! Just another lesson for me that it’s all the same where ever you are. Today, I can say that every moment of worry was worth it because I faced and conquered those fears. I learned that fear is just courage that has forgotten to be inspired by the hope of a better world. Now, I must face the fear that this will not be enough to stop this genocide. Once again, I turn to the faith and solidarity of the countless people dedicated to ensuring the safety of the Darfurian people. I have learned much from the brave souls of Darfur and from each of you. May our journey be swift, destination be home and world be one.

The real work begins………

In solidarity and Salaam, Stacey

” Speak your mind, even if your voice shakes.” – M. Kuhn

Stacey’s replies to comments

Alexi S., Thanks for watching and I, too, hope we can get through to many people! Peace, Stace

Hi Gina, I look forward to meeting you! I appreciate your comments on communication and am so glad that you saw the resilient joy living on inside of the children. May they go home soon. Peace, Stace

Marilyn, Things were very crazy here with security so day 15 turned into 14 and day 16 was Day 15. very confusing but the days do not matter as much as the experiences brought out of the camps. I hope you find both days helpful and inspiring! Thank you for all you’ve done and for all of the support. You are a hero to the Darfurian people! Peace Always, stace

Hi, Anonymous, we’ve been spreading the well wishes every where we go and the people here are grateful for the love and support! Peace, Stacey

Hey Connie, no guilt! You’ve been so active and involved all along, you deserve the rest. The welcome and reunion were so beautiful. Your brother obviously made quite the impression last time! That, however is no surprise. Amor y Paz, Stace

Rachel, You are so very right. NO mother or father should EVER experience the feeling of not knowing what will happen to their child or any avoidable suffering. Life is hard enough growing up without additional worry inflicted by outside forces. I keep ALL mothers and fathers and children experiencing these circumstances in my prayers. The children’s music did bring light and hope to us all and not only is the walk too far but the red tape and already over cramped situation in the other camps makes a move difficult. We are talking about many camps up north with THOUSANDS of people. Thanks for everything and BIG HUG, stace

Thanks for writing and although I am not one for guns, ever, it was nice that they were concerned with our safety. Much Peace, Stacey

Hi Zahara, Noemi, Gabriel and Irais! Well, we completed our mission! Day 14 was hard seeing the conditions in the the cold and the difficult stories but once again the children lifted everyone’s spirits. Now the real work back home begins!!!! PAZ, stace

Mama, not clear with all the confusion but trusting i’ll get home when I’m supposed to. Thanks for trying so hard, being a rock and I love you! Charlie

Rene!!!!! Finally, one of your comments showed up, So happy! Not sure about the traveling yet. We can change Gabriel’s ticket but mine is causing some problems. Say some prayers. Your love and support have been an immeasurable help along the way, Rene. I look so forward to sharing all of the stories with you, and RESTING a day or two before round two with the work for Gift of Peace Tour begins. Soon…. I Love You so very much. Mucho Amor Y Paz, Stacey

Hi Tony G., Yes, there are several people/organizations providing the solar cookers. They’ve been helpful but some problems occur because it is very different than their customary way of cooking and much of the wood gathering is also for building fences, roofs, little cooking areas. Hopefully, they catch on more rapidly and will lessen at least some of the outings for wood. Thanks! Stace

Hi Phyllis H! Yes, our families and loved ones made brave sacrifices to support our journey here. It is sometimes easier when you are the one going, so I admire their courage too!

I guess it is all relative, our experience of life that is. Hopefully this trip will help us all appreciate what we have and work harder to create a world that works for everyone. Let us now gather even more strength to recommit to stopping this genocide! You’ve been a true supporter and fellow journeywoman! Peace, Stace

Marv, It’s great to hear the word and movement is continuing to spread! Keep up your amazing work in Redding, CA. What an inspiration your town is to all of us. Keep walking/standing with Darfur, they do feel your solidarity here! Peace, Stacey

Lisa Goldner and Family, a reporter asked me last night if I thought our work was doing any good. I told him about you and your family and all of your eloquent posts and committed actions. You are why we do this and YOU have made a difference to our journey and the Darfurian people. The Franciscan Benediction brought me to tears, because that is the life I aspire to live. Thank you for your continued efforts on behalf of the people here and it looks like we may have opportunities to do some foreign sites for i-Act. I will carry the Eli Wiesel prayer with me as I do the photo of the Cambodian man. Salaam and Many Blessings……stace

Yes, Meron, Gabriel is a hero! Blessings, Stacey

Consuelo, May this time we mean,”Never Again” and may we stop this pain now! Much love to you, Stace

Hi, Markus C., Yes! A german site would do a world of good. The pictures from the school children would also be wonderful! German DVD with german commentary for schools and other places would be a huge blessing and aid in spreading the word into the EU. So many wonderful ideas! I have to head back out on the road across country almost as soon as I return for The Department of Peace & Nonviolence project so pleas contact any of our team members at the email Carolyn left you so we can move forward asap.! So Much Gratitude and Light to you, Stace

12 replies on “The Beginning (Day 15 from Stacey)”

Dear Gabriel and Stace,

You guys did a wonderful job!!! Thanks to ALL the i-ACT Team. I know all the hard work that goes on behind the scenes…

I feel like screaming (not just raising my voice). Let’s do some screaming together…


Rachel V.

Stacey- You did it! I am so proud of you and am eagerly awaiting your return! I am honored to have you as a friend. My deepest respect to you and Gabriel. As for Agape I won’t be able to join you until the following Sun as I am going out of town. We’ll talk very soon. love, J

And Yes, a big thank you to the behind the scenes crew!

Congratualtions to everyone on a heartfelt, eye opening, inspiring, world chaging project. Stop Genocide Now!

Dear Gabriel and Stacey,

We hope you two are safely on your way home. Thanks for so sweetly “introducing” all the beautiful children at your final camp. How sad you must be in departing all the friends you’ve made in your travels. I hope the i-ACT Extension will enable you to continue contact with Ali and Yusef and keep tabs on all the refugees you’ve visited. Your bonds grow closer with every contact, and we want you to know you’ve helped those of us participating to feel much more connected to their lives, too.

Blessings to all your loved ones who shared you two with us — a big sacrifice especially at this time of year.

Best wishes and prayers for peace,

Lisa Goldner and family

Stacey & Gabriel

Thank you both for what you have given me. The chance to meet the people I have prayed for for such a long time. To hear the laughter of the children that I wish I could protect. I will continue to do my part daily for those suffering in Darfur and will pray for the two of you always.
Harmony to you both.

watching the i-ACT has been one of the best parts of my winter vacation away from school. it has been my source of peace, humanity, worry, fear, and laughter. your evidence made me feel that everyone is connected, everyone together is one, even though we all haven’t met face to face.

you and gabriel are right. although it is good to bring comfort to the refugees, we also need to stop genocide altogether. it sounds so daunting, but i no longer feel that it is a vague and impossible task.

thank you for spending so long traveling and simply listening to the hundreds of people you hadn’t known. thank you also for the hours spent on writing entries and responding to comments too! i hope that your efforts will pay off, so that many many more people will be moving forward to stop the genocide.
enjoy the trip home!
-diana y., venice high

Stacey, What matters is not that you felt fear…what matters is that you were able to step through it. So often in life we’re afraid to take that step…but great things lie on the other side of that threshold and I can only imagine the rippling changes that will result in your life from having had the courage to step into your fear. THANK YOU for being there. For allowing yourself to feel kindness and tolerance and openness and beauty in spite of any fear that you felt (and masked very well for the camera). I don’t know Agape (know OF it)…but let me know if you come to NoCal and I will take you to Glide. Safe travels on your journey home. Big hugs…you deserve them. Peace.

Dear Ali and Yusef..
Thank you for keeping Stacey and
Gabriel “on the road” and safe. You
are the true spirit of hope!
May peace and blessings follow you
until we meet again – Stay strong!

With love and gratitude..
Stacey’s Mom

To the i-Act Team Back Home..
These daily videos and blogs have
not only given me the great honor
of meeting some of the families in
Darfur… it has, literally, been
my connection to Stacey for many
weeks and I will always remain so
grateful for the amazing job you’ve
all done — Stacey always said you
were “the best” and you’ve shown
us these past weeks that you are
definitely a “class act”!

Thank you – keep up the wonderful
job you are doing for the people
of Darfur. We don’t see your faces
but we certainly feel your presence

Peace and gratitude..
Stacey’s Mom

Finally, to Stacey and Gabriel…

You have stood tall when so many
shrunk from answering the call..
you have cared when so many chose
to look the other way.. you have
led the way for so many when others
have turned back because it was too

Thank You – We are all so very
proud of you both!!

Travel safely – Come Home Soon!

Keep the Faith —
With Faith Everything is Possible!

peace and love… Mom

Dearest Stacey,
wherever you are travelling now! A million thanks for what you did.
Am waiting for reply from you or your team!
Be blessed
Markus C.

Dear Gabriel and Stacy,
Thank you guys for doing the amazing work that you guys do! it is truelly inspiring and touching. You are really brave for doing this and touching so many people’s lives. Genocide needs to be stopped not only in Darfur but everywhere else, and thank you for helping people and starting the end of genocide.
– Dinara A.

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