Day 14: Jan 3, 2007

Day 14 from Stacey

Hello Friends,

Yesterday, we said goodbye to Yusef and headed north.We journeyed on the smallest plane yet! There was a lot of dust and turbulence as I noticed everyone looking out the window. I asked Ali if everything was normal and he said,”yes.” Turns out, as Ali told me once we landed safely, that we were caught in a sand storm and the pilot had missed the airport! It’s actually just a dirt path with some stone markers, not a typical runway and there is no “airport” to speak of, so I can see how they could miss it even in perfect conditions.

When we arrived in the new town we had to go check in with the top official of the city, comparable to our mayor. He was very apologetic about the current insecurity here, said he hoped for more tranquility for the NGOs and remarked that we had great courage to come here at this time. Gabriel and I looked at each other realizing that when the ” mayor” says something like this things must be pretty chaotic! This is the first time that we cannot go to the camp without armed security escorting us. This does little to comfort us because we’ve been told that the rebels are less likely to shoot at those unarmed. We met with the head of security in a darkened room with absolutely no light, which gave everything an even more ominous feel. Everyone here, however, has been very kind and helpful. There is only skeleton staff in the northern towns so I imagine comraderie is at an all time high. A woman we met from UNHCR spent six months in Darfur recently. It was very refreshing to speak with her because her heart is still so wide open. Many people working for NGOs that we’ve met have a harder exterior, probably to protect themselves from the onslaught of so many emotions. She was telling us about the terrible, almost inhuman conditions she’d seen at the IDP camps in Darfur due to the fact that so little aid could get into help. She’d seen tiny huts that she’d at first assumed were for the animals and later realized were the people’s living quarters. She spoke of the lack of food and almost complete lack of hope. She was clearly distraught by what she had seen and her very personal description of it was difficult to listen to. The hardest part to hear was about the awful condition of the many women being raped. I could see on her face how painful it must have been to witness these conditions. We asked about the security in the camps here and she said it was difficult to be sure right now because of conflicting reports and skeleton staff. She did say however that it was a very insecure time all around. She also mentioned a general fear among NGOs that Darfur would soon be completely forgotten.

Today,as we entered our last camp for this trip I was struck by the high winds and blistering cold. Small children, some with only summer dresses, came to greet us. I so wanted to give them my scarf and vest but there were too many to decide who would get them. It was a debilitating feeling. The tents themselves looked worse than the other camps and there was an overall feeling of desolation. We met people who spoke of the NGO’s evacuation and feeling so left alone with a lack of blankets. Many spoke of needing more wood and we were told that they went as far as 15 kilometers to find it. These outings result in clashes with the locals and women being attacked. One of the women who told us she had been beaten gathering wood was from the very first village attacked in Darfur and had therefore been here the longest. It seemed sadly fitting and reflective of the longevity of the genocide that we ran into her on our last day in the camps.The sense through out this camp is very much one of cold, abandonment and desolation.

It was depressing to know that we were leaving all of the beautiful souls that we’ve met and this would be our last stop. The children gathered and sang songs of welcome right before we departed, which felt sadly ironic. Their music gave me substinance for the journey home, where the real work is just beginning. I only wish as we left them here with so little aid to care for them, that our mission here was solely to offer them substinance for their immediate journey home.

In Solidarity, Stacey

Stacey’s replies to comments

Yes, Tim, may the people of Darfur be brought safely home this year. Thank you for being an inspiration and leader with your work to end this genocide. Many Blessings in 2007, Stacey

Marilyn, Yes it is quite windy in many of the camps with much dust and a chill in the air. Up north it gets VERY cold indeed. It is in the 70’s around Abeche and 40’s up north. The new arrivals need go through an interview process whereby they are granted refugee status. If there are unattended ( without parents) children, the details of who is best to care for them and/or commitment of relatives to care for them must be dealt with during this process. There is often a backlog entering the new arrivals into the database. There is a lot of red tape with block assignments, village information ,tent provisions and food rationing cards. It all serves to take a great deal of time to get these people settled ( as much as they can feel settled) as refugees. Yes, I imagine that the cold weather must be VERY difficult with no tents, especially after the trauma and travel. Peace, Stacey

Teresa, I, too feel a great responsibility to live up to the hopes the refugees have placed in America. As the end of this journey begins the greater challenge arrives. May we all stay united in our sustained efforts to stop this genocide now. Hugs, Stace

Marilyn,Thank you for the reminder that it’s all about individual moments connecting towards the greater goal. Thank you also for writing one of those individual moments with this comment. The situation in Darfur has changed me after seeing its direct effects but then so has the bravery and resilience of her people. Peace, Stacey

Thanks for joining us on the journey, Emily. Peace, Stacey

Hi, jc! Look so forward to meeting you and it has been an honor to work with your brother. All the Best in 2007, Stace

So good to hear from you, Darin. Yes, the children were very moving in both parts of this one world. I hope we can work together with the work you are doing in Uganda and the work we do. It is all connected. Thank you for the support and the vision you fulfilling yourself with your work! Look forward to talking when i return and here is to a peaceful 2007 for our global community! Peace Always, Stacey

Jules, Hoping to be at Agape on Sunday if all flows as planned and we can get out of Chad Sat. Then will rest on Monday before jumping into The Gift of Peace on Tuesday. Thank you for all your care for the people here and being a rock in my life. You were the first one to say to me, ” Everything is going to be fine there, no matter what is going on.” I believed you because your faith was so strong. I am so grateful that you are my friend, my sister and my teacher. Peace & Blessings, Stacey

Mom, Yes, we’ve learned ( you and I) that anger is not always negative as long as it’s channeled toward nonviolent action. I’ll share a lot with you about the 18 yr old when I get home. It is more than I can write here and I am still processing much of our conversation. FAWL was an incredible experience for the new arrivals,Gabriel and myself. Hopefully it will inspire more action to stop this genocide. I love you with all of my heart! Salaam, Charlie

Hi Susan, Glad you are back online. I know the feeling as I was without internet for two weeks before coming here. We forget what we did before all of this modern technology! Happy New Year and May we see peace in Darfur and Chad in 2007. Many Blessing to You, Stacey

Hi diana, Yes the children were indeed quiet. I’m not sure if it was the days events or the normal conduct in school. I, too would like to send tons of notebooks and pencils and crayons! Perhaps the boys anger will move toward inspired and nonviolent action like so many before him. I’m sure MLK, Gandhi, Mandela had to transmute their anger into the inspired lives they lived. Peace, Stacey

Thank you, Christine for following along this journey. Yes, the woman saw things very differently. The faith and strength we see here are both astounding to witness. The other day we got stuck in the sand for twenty minutes or so and I thought we might have to walk out of that desert. Then I remembered how many Darfurians had done just that and was renewed by their resilience. Many lessons to be learned by their unwavering faith! Blessings, Stacey

Consuelo, Yes, we do need these stories on television. These are true heroes who have survived insurmountable odds.Thank you for all you have done on their behalf and I look forward to hugging you when we get back. Paz, Stace

Thank you, Athina for you encouragement. We hope to bring hope and courage but most of all we hope to help stop the genocide. Thank you for being a part of that effort. Happy New Year, Stacey

THank you Reina Roberts for watching every day and for all you do to help the people of Darfur! Peace, Stacey

Anonymous, yes it was good the high Commissioner was here. Now we need his movement towards swift action to protect the people of Darfur! Peace, Stacey

Yousuke Arai, YOU are great to be involved and active so young! Keep leading the way. Much Peace, Stacey

Thanks, Jacob! Hopefully you’ll get to watch the other days in order to meet the beautiful people of Darfur. Peace, Stacey

David W, yes we are trying to fill the gap where Numbers become living breathing people. I;m glad you were touched and hope you spread the word about what is happening. One person at a time, we can change the world and end this genocide. Happy New Year, Stacey

8 replies on “Day 14 from Stacey”

Dear Stacey,

I commend your bravery on that treacherous flight! We’re glad your landing and guarded transport to the camp was made safely. The conditions and toll taken on this region’s camp do seem harsher. Their stories of the flight from their homes should send pangs of guilt to those who have more power to end this, but haven’t. I know it was so hard for you seeing these children shiver and suffer in the cold. Yet, their amiable, resilient spirit rose to greet you with the moving songs the children presented. If only they could all be wrapped snugly in blankets and feel safe, again.

Thank you for your sacrifice in getting these refugee messages to us. I hope they can be getting the widest dissemination possible when you’re back home. We’re spreading the word that you’ve got continued interaction planned on this campaign and what you’ve asked all of us to do with Camp Darfur and FAWL.

We pray your goals are met and peace is achieved throughout this region. Take comfort in the prayer of Elie Wiesel:

True, we are often too weak to stop injustices; but the least we can do is protest against them.

True, we are too poor to eliminate hunger; but in feeding one child, we protest against hunger.

True, we are too timid and powerless to take on all the guards of all the political prisons in the world; but in offering our solidarity to one prisoner, we denounce all the tormentors.

True, we are powerless against death; but as long as we help one man, one woman, one child live one hour longer in safety and dignity, we affirm a human’s right to live.

We wish you success in wrapping up your final day in country. Keep safe and take care in your return travels.


Lisa Goldner and family

Dearest Stacey
on todays news it was to be heard, that Congo has closed its borders to Somalia… Refugees there are worse off than at the Chad.
The US-Navy cruising at the coast of Somalia was given orders to prevent the islamists from escaping by sea.
The UN-High commissioner for refugees admonished Congo and the AU to meet their responsibility.

Stacey, I feel so utterly helpless.
Would it be of any help to get the kids in Alice´s school to draw pictures for the children in Darfur?

Shall I produce DVD´s from your videos with a German comment on it, so it can be shown in schools and at other information events? (A better video quality would be helpful) Shall I translate your and Gabriels comments into German so you could have a German version of your page too?

Please, when you are back, let me know, let as talk about, what my family, my colleagues, as far as they are willing to, and me can do for you and your mission.

I cannot find words for the gratitude and sentiment I have for you and your friends.
Be careful, feel loved and protected!

Markus C.

Hi Markus C and everyone who’s posted to the blog,

It’s really great hearing your words and offers to continue i-act! We really want the message to go out as far as possible — this definitely isn’t the end of i-act, it’s just beginning!

Markus, we will have higher resolution videos once Gabriel and Stacey return and will gladly share with you the content. Translating it for German sounds like a terrific idea! Do contact us at i-actinfo at and we can discuss further.

Keep up the spirit!
Carolyn, from team i-act

Stacey, doesn’t what you’ve been through (including armed guards) maybe make the flying fear pale just a LITTLE bit? ;) (Don’t get me wrong–I’m a totally nervous flier, too.) I’m going to brainstorm on how I can get the school where I work to be involved. I’m thankful that you and Gabriel have (aside from the occasional flat tire or getting stuck in the sand) been safe in your travels…(at least that you’ve shared with us). When you have a chance, please email me (at either my email on the comment or at bloggersfordarfur at yahoo dot com) to let me know how to contact you back in the States…have some ideas I want to run by you. Be safe…and looking forward to one more video report.

Hi Charlie (and Gabriel)..Day 14 is
a rough video to watch — I feel
helpless to protect my child so far
away for the last 3 weeks so I can
only imagine how the mothers there
feel when this helpless feeling is an every day hurting!!

I appreciated the prayer of Elie
Wiesel that Lisa Goldner sent – he
also said in his acceptance speech
for Nobel Peace Prize in 1986…
“there is so much to be done, there
is so much that can be done. One
person – one person of integrity can make a difference of life and
death. As long as one dissident is
in prison, our freedom will not be
true. As long as one child is
hungry, our life will be filled
with anguish and shame. What all
these victims need above all is to
know that they are not alone; that
we are not forgetting them, that
when their voices are stifled we
shall lend them ours, that while
their freedom depends on ours, the
quality of our freedom depends on
theirs.” “Our lives no longer be-
long to us alone; they belong to
all those who need us desperately.”

Thank you, to “two people of
integrity” — come home safely!!

love, Mom

I was just thinking to myself how I would like to write to you guys and ask how I can stay involved once you come back to the U.S. It was then that I ran across the suggestions on the page…

“2. Camp Darfur: Invite Gabriel and Stacey to your school, college or other venue! They’ll set up an interactive camp experience for you and your peers.”

I am starting a chapter of the Genocide Intervention Network at my school, Metropolitan State University this coming semester. If there is any way you could make it to our campus, I would be so grateful. Your presence would be a great way to spread the word on Darfur and to encourage involvement from my fellow students. Please let me know if anything can be arranged, or even if you have any ideas for me…
Thank you and God Bless you both,
Also, my email is:
Please feel free to contact me this way.


The trip seems to have been a great accomplishment in relaying what the genocide is like to America and in helping to comfort some of its victims. Thank you for inspiring us here in America to not just turn the other way when hearing about events like this.


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